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August madness

2009-08-14T11:27:00.004+08:00

WOOOW firewerks before national day was awesome haha went with Frana had pizza hut at cause way point my craving haha then to bishan though of watching movie but to bad no time so just went for starbucks caramel vanilla haha sat with her and teach her using her nikon haha take some funny pics after realising that she has a new kind of way to take pic haha after like months of having her nikon haha. then of to esplanade took a cab drop near fullerton hotel then walk to merlion as the walkway at the brigde is close due to lots of people ya rite haha. wait for firewerk and though we didnt get a nice view turn out we are so wrong haha it came near to the merlion haha okie now the pictures haha

Ps: all the same

envy, the friends i met and the feelings that came back

2009-07-20T00:16:00.006+08:00

heyyloww ,

10th to 12th July spending my weekends in KL watch envy perform wooohoo.
Friday morning woke up from bed and holding my guitar with my lappy and let envy do the trick haha. Then shower and had breakfast, pack my bag and chill at friends crib till 330. Meet mimi and the gangs at bugis. About 7 plus took a bus to larkin then KL reach there at 4am. We chill out had early breakfast at the estana restaurant while waiting for kimi and the other gangs to pick us up and stay in their apartment haha its my first time staying in their house so yeah and they do have a f-ing nice view from outside of thier apartment haha.
first morning in their crib woke up at 11am bathe and off to breakfast again haha we all had nice campur haha choose whatever dam food u wanna eat haha then back to the crib as some sleep some watch movie some get crazy and take picture haha till 2pm we all went to a hardcore punk gig and then of to envy haha hell ya reacch there bought T-shirts for leman and rosman then to the hall instead of taking pictures i kept marina in my bag and enjoy the music till it ends with bodysurf and moshing do you think i wanna take marina out haha. After envy had acouple of drinks and of to have dinner at some hot restaurant then to the crib more drinking session haha and some just hack it and move outside haha.

Sunday woke up bathe and then pack my bag as we are going back singapore kimi and the gangs drop as at putrajaya we took a train to hmm dam i cant remember but we had lunch at A&W haha yesh saaa haha reach Singapore at 8pm.

Now pictures of the crazyness

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything

Transformers

2009-06-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

Its freaking awesome i watch it twice in a week haha
first with pipit then with the dudes hah
this week is fun and kinda bored as i dont go out k no i did
but like goin to frenz crib and chill out haha

10th july im goin to KL and watch Envy (japanese post hardcore band)
weee and will be back on Sunday and yeah will party and shop there haha that all for now till then bye2

London

2009-06-25T16:50:00.003+08:00

back again with Blogspot after so many months
anyway on the 10th of June went for a holiday to LONDON for a week. Its so freaking awesome
as i get to take tons of pics and more. Took Emirates Airline with alot of pit-stops haha from Singapore to Sri lanka then to Dubai transit to London it takes 12 hours to reach haha .
At london's Airport went to take the express train to paddington if im not wrong haha then to victoria to change train and to Vauxhall where the hotel is locate.
First day slept then 2nd day when to Arts Gallery Museum then 3rd to hmm Tour to Windor Caslte and Stonehence then to Romans Bath then 4th to hardrock, London's eye and the tower with the clock thing then the london brigade the 5th day to the zoo hahha now the pics

and the one on the topwith the kid is actually one of it too

Baybeats 2008 friday

2008-08-30T12:30:00.000+08:00

hell yeah yesterday went to baybeats with the gangs haha kinda awesome man the band from phili and force vomit both band make the crowd move wild haha mosh body surf haha

pic of body surf and crowd

the gerl with the blues sorry i took half of ur head haha

and ya not fergetting the band

Force VOmit

and TYpeCAst

last band for the nite

haha awesome nite after the show we went to beat merchants to clean ourselves up and overnite there heh my pants and shoes are dirty with mud so as rosman and awalul haha anyway i'll be goin again on sunday for sourgrape and caracal hell yeah haha k go bye2

chaos

2008-06-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

hello im back been lazy updating

well anyway allys vintage had done our own way of recording and yesh its teruk lah haha but what the hack haha.

last friday went out with her in the morning meet her at toa payoh at 8 i think then went to have breakfast at mac . i ate hotcakes with patty haha and she mc griddles haha hope i spell in rite ..
then at 10 bought 2 tix to watch get smart haha its an awesome show totally haha funny and all haha..

after the movie well we sat down and talk and crap hehhe then send her to werk then i went home by bus hehe ..

on saturday i came to beat and chill and at 10pm to 1130 is allys jammin session haha .. room 5 the guitar is f up the drums haha (mcm tk biase jam room 5 gitu haha) then overnite there becoz the nxt day sun im werkin haha from 1am to 6am we talk crap in side room 1 haha then when yassir go home we all sleep outside room 1 haha and i got 3 hrs of sleep again haha cause jammer comin at 9am haha but i wake up at 830 cant sleep haha the reason well wanna know come to beat merchants and sleep with the ally's haha ..

thats all fer now and ya today boring i wanna go out but no body hehe

A day of study

2008-06-03T07:59:00.001+08:00

man yesterday was fun study with my ite budds haha

meetin point jurong east mrt at 2pm .. f-ing far for me like 45 mins to reach haha..
wake up at 11am damn tired sunday im werkin at beat 9 hrs of here and there haha but over abit kecoh lucky im not like totally alone on that werking day .
was with wan and lul i'll be dead boring alone haha cause fauzi will come at 3 .
after werk go eat at bugiz kfc with wan and lul
then off home lul and wan take mrt i take taxi to tp damn darn lazy haha.
reach home bathe and lepak with leman and rosman for a while and then at 11 went home and sleep.

then yesterday wake up at 11am bathe and all then ar 115pm i went to meet my ite budds at jurong east and we're all studyin at je LB haha f-ing packs with poly sec and some holiday kids haha at that at 6 we went of su and this guy goin home her fren i guess.after su, fir giant and nurul go home.
and we all went to mac and eat after that i dont know who idea to play pool haha but wth we nie to relax our brains played 1hrs of pool with two tables me, mail, epul and rizal then nxt table shikin, fir hidhir and fiq but we play merayap2 haha..
then epul and mail go home hah

after pool well tekak rase mcm nak minum air teh haha so we walk
frm JE inter to toh guan that aiman restaurant to chill .. tekak rase nak air teh sekali milo dinosaur lah haha .. talk and talk then air habis we go lepak bawa pondong haha 6 of us ajer then at 1030 all go out reach aiman restaurant we separate shikin go take 187 to marsiling fiz don knoe but he stay lake side fir walk with me hidhir and rizal we walk toward je inter the nearest bus stop then hidhir took 176 me and rizal 105 and fir walk further more to take 99 i think to go jurong west ..

in the bus after rizal drop at his stop and ya 30 to tp haha watch tv mob and then my stop reach home at 12 lucky bring key haha klah thats all fer yesterday and sundays ..

every sunday im werking opening of beat to 6pm
today maybe im picking frana up o maybe wenesday haha not sure but wth
CMPB not sure when to go

k gangs bye take care

future

2008-05-29T10:08:00.000+08:00

hey Im giving 2 year of my life to singapore within nxt year i guess and yeah letter from MINDEF was given to me last 2 days hha can wait to register and to know where m i goin to ..

today not schoolin finished my test so now waiting for one exam 4/6 only one haha ..
thats all

im back

2008-05-26T11:41:00.000+08:00

hello people its like months i didnt update heh was lazy heh sorry but im back
let me tell u about my life rite now .

im werking at beat merchant since last month its a fun chilling crazy work but with friend there to joke arnd its fun . Im out of my hardcore band becoz well i wanna learn new kinda of stuff abt drums and gerne and maybe one day i can be a free lance drummer..

Now im playing indie with leman, awalul and wan. Our band name Allys Vintage cover 3 song
1. The Ranconteurs - Steady as she goes(leman)
2. Billy Talent - Beach balls(awalul)
3. The Subways - With you(fish)

Nxt

4. Acrtic Monkeys - Fluoresent Adolecent(wan)
5. Franz Ferdinand - Take me out(leman)
6. Plain White T's - My only one(fish)

and thats all band

now my relationship heh

well now my gf is werking acountant heh i think hehe and she has graduate from tp last friday haha im proud of her and heh love her also ..
had alot of ups and down with her but we always ok heh

for yan well thanks for makin music with us im sorry to move out to play other genre but im sure we are frens and i still have hardcore in me haha thanks yan ..

School well okiee gettin crazy everyday with nut head ITE haha exam and test are like tap water haha but i manage to do it all

okiee thats all fer today bye people

make her life easier

2008-01-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

:Head Automatica:

Baby is this love for real?

Let me in your arms to feel

The beating of your heart baby

The beating of your heart, baby

:Halifax nightmare:

It's second nature for you
But its my first to make you my last one
The last one in my life
The first to make you cry
So let's drink this bottle to the very last drop
Tell me what you find at the bottom
Don't say you forgot what I need
Cause all I need is you

:better than sex:

Fix me, fix me a new cure for us

One that's stronger

One that will ease the pain

I wanna be loved by you

I wanna be there right next to you

theres more right chubb? hmm

miss you

A TRIP TO KL&KEDAH

2008-01-02T07:44:00.000+08:00

16 December went out to kedah with my parent and han
take a van to lakin and then a bus to KL

Reach KL check in to pudu raye hotel for a day
You can see KLCC from our window
we all even when to see it take a train to KLCC and take pic and all and walk to in KLCC shoppin mall its cool... and then back to the hotel and stop near A&W and eat miss the rootbeer..

Nxt day 17 dec wake up at 5am for nothing haha go out at 7am for breakfeast..
then back hotel eat and at 9am take a bus to kedah ..

at kedah checkin to travel lodges hotel ..
stayed there for 6 days.
We went to my mom's fren kampong. get to see ladang sawa and all

back home at on 26 dec thats all bye for now

i waiting for you

2007-11-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

2 years with her its not what i want but forever
if only i have wish to change myself o maybe wish that life that we both want. perfect life.
miss her smile
miss her laugh
miss her brown eyes
have to celebrate my bdae without her
i don want anything but her beside me even a second will make me smile
11 dec suppose to be a happy day for me turns out to be a sad one hmm
7 yrs from now i gonna be a sucessfull man just like what u want me to be
without the help of frenz i wouldnt be like now cheerin myself up..

had a call from u i simply miss u ur voice for 5mins will never last till my sleep

dear i really want u one my bdae
God knows i love u so much
God knows what i need for my bdae which is ur love

Selamat hari raye

2007-10-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raye to all malays haha today first day hari raya goin to mosque and pray then go grandma's house heh the mayb couzin and all...

life is gettin better and i miss skul frenz and all haha but why monday start skul arrr

on thursday went out jammin at beat hah. breakfast at zam only me and leman then after that meet hairee and yan. haron came at 815 when he suppose to come at 8 haha nvm atleast all came haha..
after that slack at bugis 7 11 sit talk and joke ... went home at 10

well that all a short one and till i update again

ilusi

2007-09-26T08:27:00.000+08:00

damn got alot of spider web arr haha dusty rusty blog aha...
k sorry for no updating my blog.. heh

Anyway life is pretty much fun, bored, problematic hah

FUN becoz got frenz that are crazy nuts and uncntrol laughter.
BORED dont have money to jam, gangz busy with there love ones and all haha
PROBLEMATIC hmm about my bill haha and family hmm

btw i bought my psp like 2 monthz ago for $453 comes with 4GB memory card, 1 game and etc haha standard package ... when home try to insert music and all haha then after 3 weeks of playin the same game so i download new games from ehmmm download 4 games first game hmm fifa street 2 then call of duty road to victory and all haha ..

Last sunday when jammin at daisy rock, meet at raffles hospital banquet at 6 to breakfast there i came with leman. we reach find a place to sit then wait for the gangz to come haha 630 hairee reach then 640 haron and yan haha janji rockstar sak haha.. Bought yong tau fu with leman then haron and yan wantan noodle haha hairee he nvr eat cause sit taken hha so he juz buy papaya jus haha ..

After breakfast when off and search daisy rock haha no sure the place cause its our first time jammin there. Took bus 7 to SMU then walk to park lane mall then paradiz centre haha we were late suppose to be there before 8 and we reach 815 haha so jam 5 song haha all cock up hah timing and ferget lah haha for like hmm along time heh we nvr jam so last sunday was the first. i think the last time we jam is before fasting month haha .. Goin home all were tired and we seperated at parklane bus stop hairee took 65, haron and yan took hmm 13 i think then me and leman took 147 to potong pasir then 142 i so tired haha slept in 142 haha ..

On monday went out with pipit to geylang breakfast at city plaza haha some restaurant haha ate pizza chicken chop and mushroom steak haha ..
Then when in search of baju kurong for hari raya..spent an 1hr then send her home. reach admiralty at 11 am then came back at 1140 lucky i get to take the last train to toapayoh haha okiee thats all aite for now

To pipit i miss you and i wonder when can we meet again haha

support me please dear? i love you

2007-07-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

hmm nowadays life is so miserible
i hate it all hmm
i love her and i thot she support me all this while but she hmm
whatever happens i'm not leaving you hmm i love u and ya i need to think of u more then the band hmm
chubb u are right hmm action speaks louder than words
i wanna show u more of my love than telling you words

abt today hmm jamming for 2 hrs and harun tk dtg aper daa ..
aces high dh ok so as chapter four, the river and to end the rapture and next coming song hmm blinded in chain, the trooper and unholy confession ..
Got our new name band alternate present haha

new family member

2007-07-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

hello2

im back!!!!!!

hehe okiee the meaning of a new family member is actually a new band member for the so call bandwidth haha.. Now got new memeber so we decide to change our band name to sumthing else. Not sure what but we will come out with sumthing.

About the band from 4 man band to 5 man band and their Harun, Hairee, Yan, Leman, and me haha.

Yan (second guitarist) and harun (vocalist) came from the same band before joining us and now the so call bandwidth haha have everything we need haha..

My life hmm okiee kinda broke nowadays haha jamming skul and all haha lucky got partime werk haha ... today demolish the pelamin with leman and abg khai at tampines, hopefully cna meet chubb after that hmm i miss her heh ..
Skul start its hard to meet chubb but we both try to make it up the lost time hmm i miss you chubb2

what do u think about my blog peepz ..?
please tag and tell haha

move along with her

2007-06-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Transformer is AWESOME kick ass movie ...

and heh hello, today went out to meet chubb at 11am then 11 tu bachen aru bangn tido nie so at 1130 lah dier kuar cpat dier mandi haha tau pon takot org mara haha.

wanna watch at causeway but neh hmm takot lambat lah so change of plan watch at sumplaza at 1215 haha so from her house took 911 to wlds interchange and took mrt to sembawang.
Reach there and went up straight to cinema and get the tix and bought nachos combo and mineral water for chubb hmm she's sick and she still wanna go out hmm ..

in the movie well as usual cuddle up and haha watch. DAMN i like the part when the Ironhide and the medic officer cover the kid hmm that is carry the cude haha Ironhide was AWESOME so as bubble bee his the hero haha after the show when to cause way point again eat pizza heh ..

ate chic meatballs, some seafood pizza and hmm oreo temptation i think haha and she hmm seafood pasta entah aper hehe mkn2 hmm then went off to send her to werk hmm at yishun and after that when home ...

hmm chubb i miss u and thanks for the treat hmm actually today i don want u to go out and also not to werk ur sick and u still wanna werk hmm dear please take care of yourself i love u and heh upe lagik satu chubb2 slame niw i sakit u pon pamper me haha so i pamper u alik arr haha .... ouh satu lagik hmm si ponpuan yg transformer tu heh hot eh haha k2 kidding ...

chubby I love u..

*i cant ferget abt you

went to funk the beach

2007-06-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

OI! heh
today went to sentosa and the place is trash now the burger king near the enterance is gone haha ... kinda boring there heh but so far okiee lah with the 3 gangs haha leman and hairee so its fun arr and also the others hmm leman's classmates anti social with them haha we all dont know them much so if we dont know we dont care haha..
from 10am to 5pm at sentosa all of us with our own world dont care about others just doin their own things like listen mp3 and walk alone hah awesome is it hah ...
Took mrt home at tp then eat at mac.
After that went to send the mamat stupid's guitar and slack at his house for alot and when off ...

tomorrow meet miss lovly heh i miss her and guess what i miss her so much hah ....
see you tomorrow lovly..

WOO im back

2007-06-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

HELLO
heh sorry peepz im busy with the boys.
Well abt today woke up at 11 and bathe eat and then at arnd 5 went out to meet lovly. Yesh i miss her haha then meet her and took mrt at orchard and hehe as usual i'll joke arnd with her in the train haha then drop at yishun cause her mom ask to buy food haha. After that took bus and send her mom and thts all for today haha...

yesterday hmm went to have lunch with her at far east then after that when to meet leman and his cuzzin jojo at beat merchant studio and the rest. its fun lah yesterday and goner finish the river cover and to end the rapture hmm and next iron maiden - aces high and fear of the dark haha and then hmm we are on our own playin our own music haha and after jammin went to penni and eat. jojo bought metal zone haha stim sia playin guitar with metal zone haha .

well thats all peepz i'll update next time aite..

I love u and i will alwayz do

praying for our lips to touch

2007-04-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

hmm life boring without her hmm if only she new..
frana buzy werking and i'm skuling hmm...
but tthat wont stop me from loving her..
we both misunderstood each other sometimes but i'll always lose because i understand hw she feels..

hmm i miss her and i hope she knew..
on sunday went out to rosman house his bro make open house and invite me han and hairee but hairee cant come so leman came .. slack at rosman house and ya world peace again he say he got a band screw him he dont even know hw to play anything except talking crap and a big liar.. then at 630 went to meet frana pick her up from werk then reach there she say her mom fetching her home so we meet awhile she kiss me and i didnt get to kiss her hmm i miss kissing her hmm i really felt so hurt for not being there when she needs me

i love you awak if only u feel hw i feel when u kiss me and went off

Diary of Jane

2007-04-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

HELLO ..

let me show u what i've done for 3 weeks holiday...

1.when out to celebrate mom bdae at some seafood restaurant.

chili crab(where are all the crab?)

Cereal fried PRAWN(also where are the prawn)

hmm hehe i'm coming for more of it haha

and there's 8 person eating all of it.

2. When jamming with BOYS

New Long john silver meal COMBO SHIT

F the tiny room hahah

my'>http://spastic-fishy.imeem.com/video/fHG4gG4P/fish_magic/"> my merepek video

Feels like tonight

2007-03-31T16:19:00.000+08:00

I'm Happy
I'm NUTS
I'm HYPER
His HANTU
studio

wooow so long haha...

well nowadays i'm always out weather i have o don have money ahha ... After i got my band its like everyday we jam haha but actually not lah siao everyday jam money come out like tap water sia haha ...

Today 31 march went to acompany han to anugerah haha he wanna show his talent haha sleep over his crib then woke up at 430 with 4 alarm clocks ringing haha ask han to bathe cause he will definely sleep back haha unlike me i'll be hmm watch tv haha... after he bathe then me haha then when out at 6 am haha kinda early but werrying that maybe there will me alot of people but when we reach there its like nobody hahha waste come so early we could just continue sleeping but nvm after it we can sleep haha....

While we were walking near the place haha... Saw shah and maliki old budd lah sat down talk abt anugerah, what song each other singing and all but not me i'm not interested in it haha... As the offical call for registration all came for 10 to 40 then 100 then i lost count haha wait for 1hr for them to sing and all then went to meet han and maliki they went in first before shah and guess what han and maliki didnt got thru the first round only shah got thru hah the very first 17 year old i guess hahah to get thru first round .... He got interview by fiza o damn she is so cute and hot haha (jgn mara tau pit main2 ajer) and every paticipants got 3 packetdrinks hmm marigold milk haha SUSU haha merepek seh....

when back toa payoh with maliki and he when off left me anh han so we went to jamming hmm 2 person hairee was tired cause yesterday when out haha .. Jam for 1 hr and went and slack and later at 8 i'm off to meet frana she got a job so i fetch her home... i'm goin off now gd nite

Ready and willing

2007-03-03T09:10:00.000+08:00

arrr hehe sorry so late rite my update hehe was so buzy with skul and all... hmm these past few days i've been not in a great mood cause i didnt get to meet her hmm i'm missing her so bad...

yesterday friday after skul when straight to han house instead of jammin we went to play snooker at toa payoh safra its been a long time since we went there haha... play for abt 2 hrs at its raining heavily outside so we stay indoor hmm had to meet frana at 430 but hmm i came late hard to get taxi hmm its all my fault hmm i'm sorry for keep u waiting really sorry...

took taxi to tamp and reach there at 5 hmm then ask her we take taxi again to yishun mrt and i pay cause its my fault ....

in the taxi with her i start to cuddle her as she is all wet hmm i cuddle her hmm cause she is cold hmm

till we reach yishun mrt she bought briyani for her dad then we went off to admiralty to meet customers there and when back home

kiss you hug you tell you i'm missing you already

26 JANUARY 2007

2007-01-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

The day starts happily fine normal friday. As i went to skul meet fir then lepak with him for awhile then go skul together..
In class well its all normal, saw a thick metal for an hour damn tired and all hahha.
everything juz normal arr then finish skul at 1230 nvr go for friday prayers so went home first eat then go out again meet han and hairee at interchange to go potong pasir jamming studio reach there at 2 bcoz hairee come late hahah as usual lah hahha... Then the first studio was full so we wait for the 2nd studio to openwait at the coffee shop drink milk tea hahah till 3 then go of the owner open we went in okiee ...

After that when to meet frana at normal place, she came we went off to take 291 to tamp inter ...she wanna buy fries and cheese burger at mac so we buy then i left my wallet at the counter f lucky i get it back and remember if not i'm dead ic inside sia.. took bus 72 to yio chu kang juz to waste time haha inside we eat then disturb each other its so fun .. then reach yio chu kang it rains then a guy he seems kinda tired he slept in the bus we try to wake him up but still he wasnt awake i try waking him up like i do to my buddy but still not waking ask frana don tell me his d**d so she went down to tell the bus drive as she went the person woke up already
man that was scary and shocking ... We laugh and talk abt the incident all the way till bus stop and take 852 to yishun ... hmm she call mom and ask what she wanna buy then after bought everything we took a taxi home hmm reach her block went to take the lift and FUCK guess what I LEFT MY HP IN THE TAXI .... when down call my hp using frana phone but fuck i switch it off what the hell felt piss off punch the metal bar 4 times in front of frana not sayin i'm showing off but piss off man ...hmm make a report and cut my line so monday they send and i'll buy new phone dad dont know abt it so fucking dead if he know abt it... thats all

miss my donut dear and its not your fault

first day of ITE BUKIT BATOK

2007-01-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

well today is my first day and its a bad luck day hmm

Wake up at 630am bathe and all change till 7. Mom cook nasi goreng for us(me bro and sis) but i didnt eat cause scared hmm hehe later go toilet not becoz my mom cooking but i really cant eat in the mornin like 7 o 8 ... and yeah the two of them eat.

Went out to meet afiq and john at toa payoh interchange as i walk to bus stop hmm drop my hp f sia hmm then reach interchange when to top up my ezlink card on the q hmm check my wallet f again no money hmm then call mom then she nag awhile then she ask bro to meet me at taxi stand near the interchange hmm
meet afiq as he reach at interchange and follow me to taxi stand wait2 till 8 hmm lucky bro came in time give my money then go top up hmm

after that wait for john hmm so late but nvm lah he stay ang mo kio sia hmm take taxi come sia hmm ...

wait for bus 157 hmm late sia then one of the auntie respect her sia MY HEROINE hahha she go out and shout OI to the bus driver crossing to ask the 157 bus driver to come faster hahha..

then reach skul at 1015 suppose to be 0900 report but f it lah hahha ... sit down as the idiot talk shit then we go tea break hmm 15 mins only f sia then when back skul after that hmm ... well till nex time aite

I miss going home with her

happy lips yesterday

2006-12-30T09:13:00.000+08:00

its pipi han's big fat cat
her favourite
tigger the bachen
again her favourite
isy habis sume dier mkn hahha

Yesterday Friday went out with her. Its been a longtime we wen out together hehhe.
At 8am i woke up then i bathe and relax till 11 den went out out to meet her at toa payoh interchange but a change of mind coz she wanna take taxi so she drop nyer my house haha bachen naik taxi hehhe no lah actually i want her to take hehe coz its faster lah ...
she reach arnd 1130 so we took a bus to interchange den when to take out my money then went to toa payoh libary and return her book so we walk pass 7-11 then stop awhile she wanna buy drink.

Then i saw this kinder bueno(hope i spell correctly) the egg inside theres a toy haha the last time i bought it when i'm 7 hahha ...
return the book at walk back to interchange took a train to plaza sing watch the night at museum haha its funny and nice and sad too haha .... after watch movie when to far east hmm walking to far east haha we need a walk haha as we walk we talk haha hmm laughing and jokin hmm i love it when ever we joke and laugh arnd haha

reach far east ask her where she want to eat as always she say anywhere haha so we head up to sakura but so many people so tk jadi then ask her let go ramen ten and ya she did say anything so we go to ramen ten and eat hahha its worth man haha ate hmm hakkio oyster noodle i think haha and her tomyam sumthing haha side dish hmm salmom egg and fried prawn shusi and order prawn mayo so marvellous and nice hahha...
after we eat hmm walk to mrt station took a train tu yishun as her mom ask her to buy sumthing and whenever its time to go home hmm we start moody hmm time is so fast hmm ....

I love you and your attitude wont change my love for you.
i wont change when i go to ITE, i'm still hafiz i'm still loving you the way i always do.

you make my day dear.. i love you

Wish for a perfect life

2006-12-27T07:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday when out with her to skul as she is doing her project with frenz i plak game hehe hp ajer haha kinda nice hehhe main game sampai 3 jam seh and tk tau pon haha...

She has problems with her family life and all hmm i wish i have the power to change everythings abt people hmm ....
I really cant wait to start a new year with new frenz i guess haha

frana my only one, don't ever think that everybody has a perfect life. Nobody is perfect not even a rich people is perfect kadang2 sesak jgk tau haha

that's all and ya to all readers shld i change i blogskin?

crazy outing

2006-12-23T10:20:00.000+08:00

when to han house hehe
same as the above
penjual VCD LUNCHA hahha
after a long day of the pelamin help

Last thursday when out with han, his sis and his two brothers. when to watch happy feet at marina haha the second time watching it but nvm han treat so its okie haha..
before watch we go eat at the foodcourt. ate nasik lemak and this chocolate thingy haha don know what but its nice hahha ...
walking to cinema saw fafa and her guy haha she look tall haha and long time never see her haha ....

after movie went to buy guitar at penisula acoustic guitar 80 dollars with the bag and 2 pick one soft and hard haha ... he buy the guitar i carry haha no sayin he ask me arr but i want to carry haha ...

friday when out tolong org pasang pelamin and all at bishan dtg at 230pm then finish evruthing at 11 haha den 12 suppose to go home but the pick-up kene stolen hehhe so lah some guy took it to bring more stuff i guess ... hmm wait and crap haha talk abt the grooms sister haha sayin that she is the bodyguard haha funny sia haha after talkin come the pick-up haha carry things they don need in the pick-up den off to home haha thats all fer this week bye2

Ending of the N5 of SASS

2006-12-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

the memories of the toilet haha alot of things happen in there

Tigger strange hahha

hahha juz the way they are

weeew this week is the best week ever haha got new phone haha nokia 5300 haha the grey one haha wooow didn't expect mom to buy haha but i must pay her back hmm but i make a promise so yeah i will...
tomorrow meet her hehhe main badminton haha semangat lerr hahha

i pass my exam and sis and bro nak buy me guitar dh janji so cannot say cannot o i'll be mad hahha ... when to skul today so2 nervous in the bus i'm shaking haha not bcoz of cold but so scare hahha... i want to go for digital animation i really like animation kinda cool but look at frana and hwat she do haha so stress but i really like it hahha ...

after we get the result we go lepak2 kat mac haha 9 people 3 indian chinese and malay hahah ... now relaxing as tomorrow we go simei haha ITE hahha hmm miss edwin it would be better if we all go out together the 20 of us as the other 7 still inmature hahha k2 till next time good luck ...

My bdae with the worst family

2006-12-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm the family i have is not the type where u can stay in peace ...
Today when out at 830am meet her and wanna clear her nervous mind cause shes taking her exams.. after meet her i went to han house as he said i have to come so i went and actually he wanna treat me mkn and all haha hmm she say she want to spend time with me but hmm i guess tomorrow we will k dear hahha ...

went to han house play game den wait for him to bathe and change den we go to far east go to cheeks as usual the akak will ask hw are you what you want to buy lah what lah aiyooo but we change ou mind and go lips hahha han bought me a blazer i guess hahha and bought himself a new shades and new shirt haha .. when to eat at ljs so bloated we kill with the salsa cheese make us so full...

then hmm when to candy empire and search for beef jerky but no stock hmm our favourite sia hhah... hmm buy the blue berry and strawberry hmm sweet so sweet to sweet very sweet haha... den when home ..

as usual also when home get nag for stupid thing as mom is deaf and i talk abit loud and dad scold me for being rude.. all i say back to him was f u and he kept quiet hmm maybe he also deaf hahha

that's all for now till the next time

sitting down imagine the first time i lay my eyes on you

2006-12-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

hey, sorry for my late entry haha idah asyik memekak arr tyr suruh update ajer hahha... this week after frana fall sick i also get sick hehe becoz hehhe cnt tell haha ...

Then she feelin better now but i still hav running nose hee ... hmm still no werk now damn boring sia hmm i wanna werk please..
Ive watch "open season" OI! hahha funny sia the rabbit like a paper ball haha got throw by the other animals haha ....

birthday comin i wanna a new hp from family if they care, wanna get cloths and more stuffs, want my guitar i want it black and white and grey colour so2 fucking nice sia den i wanna rite 9 nov hahha she knows what is means frenz know it to but u strangers don know come find out haha

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus the lead vocalist ader pehlat sikit
r dier and more i think but most is r ... but still the song nice hehhe

My fights and love with u

2006-11-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

frana tgh merepek dgr ajer k

i'm back, just come back from hehe outing ....

today watch movie Happy feet so freaking funny and sad till frana cry.
den alik umah mom ckp she npk me and frana kat yishun which is true i'm with her hmm kene lecture hehe kejap ajer lepas tu aku tukar subject haha...

besok prom night hmm tapi aku tkgi arr hmm malas arr bayar mahal sial abeh dkt SAJC seh org hotel2 arr haha arr...

alik SAF-ITE send letter aku werk and blajar hmm monthly pay $750 6 months kt dlm dpt 3SG $1,991..
nak masok tapi kene sign on if not kene bayar aiyooo

wel next time i update aite

vacation needed away from family

2006-11-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

fucking bitch cant shut up since the day i was born till now i cant believe how in the hell i fucking can live with her fucking shity mouth ... when i'm not at home she don nag den when i come back home she nag ask me do this do that... fucking well do ur self lah btw i'm her fucking only child k still got bro sis fucking use your fucking brain arr sia...

when bro the whole day at home u didn't ask him do anything now i at home u ask me do thins that u think i'm ur dog fuck you lah ...
I prefer grave den this shity mother fucking life ....

can anybody tell my parents to shut thier whole and care abt thier childrens life more then the others pleasefucking ass holes

FUCK THEM ALL

Our 9 long kiss

2006-11-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

today its 9 november 2006 and its me and her 1 year anni, nothing much happen but still we get to meet each other.

at 11 when out with rosman suntec city cause yesterday the toy r us company called sayin that i got an interview at 12am hmm was kinda werried if i didn't get the job but its juz an interview..haha k

at 135 meet her at city hall den go dhoby mrt goin to Plaza sing cause wanna watch movie there. Chose the grude 2 haha so freaking me out althought i dnt understand the movie much but its so freaks me sia i never been so freak out haha scared like fuck haha i cover my ears den frana she more scare haha cover her eyes haha then the gory and freakin pop out from the room freaks every boddy out till this mat melatah minah pon alamak.. den after the movie we go jln2 arnd hmm not much time seh nak go more places.. from Plaza we go esplanade take bus to yishun hmm sit in the bus hmm listen mp3 haha den hmm was like so2 pnat mcm nak tido tapi dh nk kat sampai yishun haha go buy long john buy combo 1 for me and her haha hmm so long tk mkn long john haha ... hmm den go home so hard but tkpe lah haha miss her already after kat mrt tgh alik hmm...

9nov is the day i ask you for love
9nov is the happies day of my life
9nov is where my heart stays in your heart
9nov is the 9th girl to fall in love with
9nov is the day Allah guide me to her
9nov is where i realise love is what i needed
9nov is what i dream of
9nov is more love then life
9nov is our day we say i love you forever and it wont end

feeling change our day

2006-11-02T09:27:00.000+08:00

sorry for the late update was so buzy and totally ferget abt updating blog haha ...
well on the 28 oct hmm its aisyah bdae she send me email but i didn't check and i'm so sorry ya aisyah and happy 18 hmm m i right? haha but sorry didn't turn up that day ....

on monday, the weather hmm was okie not that hot haha meet her and repair her laptop at sim lim boyz zone(do go there!! they fix laptops fast and also cheap) den they say come back at 530 and that time it was hmm 230 so we go jln2 to bugiz find my sandals haha den go and watch movie hm ro b hood i think, the baby movie its so cute sia if only i have a brother like that so cute and the show so so funny and sad too u guyz juz watch okie.. then the show end we go back to the shop and get back her laptop and when straight home. On the way home hm i got headache fever haha hmm seriously hurt me but she take care of me hehe i send her all the way home den go home take taxi hehe damn everytime i meet her i always take taxi sia.

tuesday didn't meet her coz i'm so tired and my leg are so2 hard to move haha rest for a day den at home finished up my game haha call of duty 2 den the end suxz not so much action sia hmm thats all i do at home for that day ...

then wednesday meetin her a 11 so i go out at 1030 again taxi haha but hmm i'm late bcoz she finish at 1030 and i go out at the same time as she finish so i ask her meet at our normally meet place haha den we go jalan2 to changi air haha spend our 3hrs there den come back hehe buy marybrown and the ehmm service there suxz the burger so like normally f them for the service haha

today well juz wake up and update blog and hmm i miss her. Today go raye2 without her with me hmm but tkpe lah friday we meet so tkpe k awak ... btw thats all for now till i update again bye2

B: D!! trust me i wont go away

The lyrics for them
2006-10-26T22:03:00.000+08:00
20 Dischanger - I Won't Fall For You (2006)

we are back to where we started
i'm so lost and confused should i stay or should i go away
a million times you say you're sorry
its a meaningless word that u used on me time and time again

silent screams escape my lips
i feel there's nothing more that i can do
i'm trapped in a cage and i'm on my own
i just saw the beast
i tried to shout the silence away
the harder i try the harder i fall
i saw it coming again
and the beast is you

as the light unfolds the darkness beneath
i saw something i wished i've never seen
amongst the piles of memories
deliniation of you

i wont fall, i wont fall for you again
this love just caused me so much pain
i promised myself to never let me down
i wont fall, i wont fall for you again
this love just caused me so much pain
i promised myself to never let me down

Its not fer you MISS CHUBBY

My Own

2006-10-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

hell o, hmm sorry for the changing of blog backgroundand didn't update my blog hmm was kinda hehe MALAS nak update arr asik main dragon fable hehe so let get it started yeah.

well,yesterday pick her from skul hehe at 330 and yesh i did take a taxi everytime i wanna meet her haha malas nak naik bus banayk duit kate kan tapi kerje nyer tidak hahha. I wanna werk but no fren arr anyone wanna werk haha. Back to meetin her, i sat down under the block our normal meetin place haha tgu dier den dier dtg pki tudung hehe hmm at first i mcm tk biase arr but on the way tk kisah lah dh syg nak uat ape kan biasekan ajer lah hehe. Went to shoppin she wanna buy her bag and mom's chipit Rambot hehe her mom lah hmm samapi kedai dier haiyoo bnyak lah dier nak beli tulah aper nak tapi tk pki hehe.

Naik bus alik hmm dlm bus as usual she will kacau me den i do it back haha kecoh seh she main ngn her so call jambol haha (tudung). drop at admirallty buy makanan for her mom den walk home hmm pnat but hehe tk kisah arr
she reach home at 630 den i go home at that time hmm bt i walk all the way to mrt station haha nak buy drink but malas arr hehe so i go on dah naik mrt. Dah azan hmm i didn't buke until i reach home haha balik umah first i drink water den mkn ...

today well nothin much arr and gtg dh buke hehhe bye

Prove to me my thinking is wrong

2006-10-10T06:35:00.000+08:00

Do you feel?
Feel the way I feel
Do you believe in the lies that I told?
Do you love?
Love the way I loved
Are you feeling the peace that I know

Do you believe?
Or do you feel the same and want me to go?
Coz I don't know if I can be the same and be this sane
Do you believe?
Or do you feel the same and want me to go?
Coz I don't know you anymore

Do you feel?
Feel the way I feel
Are you feeling the life that I told?
Do you love?
Love the way I loved
Are you feeling the peace that I've shown

Do you believe?
Or do you feel the same and want me to go?
Coz I don't know if I can be the same and be this sane
Do you believe?
Or do you feel the same and want me to go?
Coz I don't know you anymore

As the paper burn to ashes

2006-10-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

as all of us go our own way. We still contact each other, Edwin has leave singapore and goin to newzealand to be with his beloved mother and we all know he miss his mother hmm

Today we went to airport to see him, woow he change hair style and colour his hair haha gold haha he look like jepanese haha hmm den he boardin at 7 if we were early he wanna treat us eat but then not much time hmm but he give us 20 dollars hmm he wanted to give more then we say no. He need his money for his way to malbonre hehe if salah spellin sorry.. den new zealand haha...

give him sake and wave to him then wait for him to check his passport haha hmm well after that we go eat and we cheer ourselfs up haha eat at mac ...

Edwin where ever you are please read my blog arr and please chat with me aite
As we are brother from diff mother and father haha.. Take care

SUEY BROTHERS FOR LIFE

wipe my tears as i cry

2006-10-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

On wednesday, went out with her and frenz hmm was kinda fun when to bugis she wanna buy her things but to bad kedai tutup hmm so we decide where to berbuke den ist at city plaza mkn kat maner enth aku pon lupe hehe ... i eat fish and chip haha so2 crispy haha den jln2 at geylang nak carik baju raye hehe..

then alik at 930 as all of us i guess were so tired hehe and sleepy.send her home naik 913 hmm when ever it is time to send her home i start to be so moody hmm becoz i'm gonna miss her so badly. Sat in the bus hmm hold her tightly and hug her hmm drop from bus den send her to the lift hmm i miss her so much, its the time to let her go home as it late and i have to go cause the last train is at 1140 i think ...hmm

Today wee,
finish n level and the maths paper 2 is so freakin hard so hard as i kinda like wanna burst my head hmm den think abt her well i try my besh to do those questions..
frenz plan to torn as its fasting month i didn't go hmm so i think only abt 10 person goin haha its like a whole group of mat, punk rocker and maklazz haha ...

I didn't bcoz i miss her so much and so guys..

she wipe my tears as the night takes over

werried sick about you beause i love you

2006-09-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

helo, sudah 5 hari kite berpuase alhamdulillah. Anyway today was so boring didn't go out because i don feel like i want to haha. then the whole day with my cat tigger i wake up at 1pm and tigger wake me up cause he wanna eat haha. Tigger is like my lil brother haha. i let him it his food and watch tv hmm so boring but no choice i just watch haha den sleep so boring arr my life haha...if only i can go out with her everyday woow should be awesome haha...

tigger the cat

my wings are broken but still i will fly with you

2006-09-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

the above are all my drawing hmm hopefully u guys like it ...

i'm totally busy now a day designing for my t shirts for selling haha after exams hat is.. ANYWAY I NEED YOUR COMMENT so please do it for me k ...

Yesterday when out with her and just can't get enought other. Watch pulse at sun plaza haha 12.10 so early no body only us there sitting on the couple sit without charge of money haha.. watch it haha so2 scary even i can cover my eye hmm unlike her hehe she scream on my ears yaiiiikkzzz haha... but its awsome lah the movie must more awesome den any scary show hah.. then went to bugiz go arab street hmm she wanna buy things for her shop haha hmm he nextime i go shopin with i i have to blind fold her hah ... mcm mak cik2 tau dier shoppin haha...

then go buy murtabak haha she buy large one hmm so freaking big but habiz sikit ajer bcoz we both so full we ate at esplanade hahaha on the way there saw agilan with his gerl haha cofirm he never go skul haha like me haha... mkn2 den take 857 to yishun hmm go home time. it was hard to let her go hmm but i have no choice..

today didn't go skul cause malas haha maybe tomorrow i go skul i guess haha

till nxt time i update hahha bye2

Loving you is a part of my everyday life

2006-09-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

Happy 10th my dear..
hmm today i feel so happy and energy up when i meet her today after 2 week didn't meet her hmm when we didn't meet, we promise each other that the first thing we see each other is hug and kiss but ehheh tk jadik psl hehhe aderlah haha kan2 dee... then we go take mrt to orchard hmm on the way there i feel like so2 miss wanna hug and kiss her haha in the MRT somemore haha i put my hands arnd her all the way till orchard ... i juz reall love her so much ..

then we watch frostbite its awesome haha make frana cover her face haha but the ending suxz so suxz hmm i think there is part 2 hehe syg nxt show pulse k syg haha..
send her home hmm so sad hmm don wanna talk abt it hehe...

today at 115 go han house den meet the guys and go to JAMMING haha so long seh tkgi haha play for an hour haha the studio is fuckin cool because rainin haha
after that we went to my uncle house they goin to umrah don knoe when haha .. meet my cuzz huda, aini, shahidah... hmm tomorrow back tu skul aiyoo lazy seh but i think no skul arr alah i don know lah haha hmm well till here...

HAPPY 10 MONTHS MY DEAR...
I make you from a kiss from my heart

What if i die tomorrow

2006-08-30T09:39:00.000+08:00

Every day I try to see
the closeness that your promised me,
fades away,
it fades away.

Every night I try to dream
of what you wanted me to be,
in your life,
in your life.

Every dawn the light that wakes you up
will remind you of my touch.
that you miss so much.

What if i died tomorrow?
would you miss me here?
What if i cried tomorrow?
Would you shed your tears?

Every time you think about
the things you said
remind yourself im gone. ( im gone)

I hope you take this as a lesson learned.
Tomorrow isn't promised (nothing's promised.)

Every hour, every day gone by,
you'll cry for me,
you'll cry for me.

What if I died tomorrow?
would you miss me here?
What if I cried tomorrow?
Would you shead your tears?

A story's just been told that has happened yet.
Just a tragic foreshadowing
of what could happen to you.

Think before you speak,
it could be the last time ( the last time)
you ever speak to him.

What if I died tomorrow?
would you miss me here?
What if I cried tomorrow?
Would you shead your tears?

A story's just been told that has happened yet.
Just a tragic foreshadowing
of what could happen...

To make you laugh like little girl you are

2006-08-26T09:34:00.000+08:00

back from freaky days of exams:

study2 till have no time to update blog. now still cannot relax to much n level very near have to study more on my maths ARRRR and the rest of the subject that i'm not sure. last last tuesday after the 1st session of exam we when to our hideout call it punk cause its near to a jammin studio. went there slack sit down with all the same maniac of the class. some smoking some didn't like me haha, then after at 1030 we walk back to Mac to eat cause it still early exam start at 1130 so gt alot of time. While walking back we saw tennis ball in one of the house's backyard haha the door was open and we wanna take it my neh juz leave it. Suddenly we heard a dog barkin and it behind us i don know what dog but you can by the looks of it thats it one mad dog. we run like we are running for our life. it chase linges all the way bcoz his the last one to run. it chase him all the way to the road side and the car near knock him but on the other side me edwin loga and elfee were laughin like hell den the dog stop chase linges and den US lucky we are neart to the potong pasir mrt hahha that was so dam suey and fun haha.

last night was the night of our life me and her hmm its juz hard to let her go but we have to cause she has to go home and even me hmm i kinda sad every time we have to go hmm as in home arr.... wanna spend everyday of my life with her, i miss her badly if i didn't get to meet her ARRRR btw i'm late gtg wanna meet edwin at skul cause mr aou yong wanna teach us maths haha bye2 take care and comment me at my tag board about my blog. i make it myself

Her tender lips I kiss

2006-08-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

Currently feelin so sad and sad hmm although I went out to watch the last day of fire works. Its so awesome!!! Much more better than the rest of the days. And sadly she is not with me but if she go she must be tired becoz there is a lot of people so much man till it takes 20 mins to walk away from the same place hmm.... Went to esplanade 4 person go home 2 person han and hairee missing den I went home with man haha...

The 9 things I LOVE abt her :
1. the sweet smile on her face
2. the pretty eyes that stare at me
3. you sacrifice something that you should not
4. the hug like you don't wanna let go
5. the sickness that you care
6. the encouragement you give
7. your hand mould with mine
8. your lovely CHUBBY CHEEKS
9. your tender lips on mine speaks love

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WHAT U THINK!!!!!

what's the best can i do?

2006-08-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

ARRRR what a fuckin month?
alot of friends broke up this month, what the fuck man...

what could happen next?

i'm so over protective to her i feel so insecurity arrr sial arr

can somebody knock me on the head so i forget every thing i've tried and it doesn't work at all...

btw today is my exam CPA hmm i didn't do much off it i juz anyhow do and i think i'm gonna past hahha....did try my so call best.
then after that went to realise stress with frens walk2 at town area den at 2pm go home abd later have to pick her home. i'm so so penat but i have to bcoz i love her if she wanna be with me forever?okie2 juz jokin

Fuck you bustard 1730hrs

DEATH WISH

2006-07-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

Why must you leave me here, so that i can forget about you?
So why you have to choose him and not me?
I sacrifices everything for you and you have to do this to me

I open my heart(JUST FOR YOU)
I want my death wish(COME THROUGH)

You had it all in your mind
7 months ago and we were fine

(AND NOW, AND NOW)

You have leave me here so that I can forget you
So you have to choose him(I'VE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY)
Sacrifices everything(for you)

Doing this to me make my (DEATH WISH COME BACK)

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

my fren's memories

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

She hides her feeling in her heart
Her ex-guy has ruin her apart
Tears drips down her eye
Just go and never say GOOD BYE

more darkness speaks out

2006-07-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

So convince me its coincidence as silence gives way to the meticulous and I never said the things you need to hear.

Be sure to bleach all of your black sheep and turn them into something beautiful and bright.

What can I say that hasnt been said about poisoned darts?

Im the fall guy for all the games that you play
sworn to secrecy no matter your indecency.

So is anyone who they pretend to be? This conversation just got uncomfortably honest. Your inferiority complex is simply dazzling.

Its not the thought that counts.

FELL FROM GRACE
Destroyed By Faith (In Loving Memory Of Hirwan)

No, not now. Please.
I still miss them.
I still need them.
No, not now. Please.
I'm not ready to go.
Not ready to go.

Somebody, please help me.
Grab my hand 'cause I'm drowning.
Pull me to the surface.
And let the sun shine on my face.

Let me feel the sunshine again.

I cannot see, I cannot breathe. (My eyes are sore, My lips are numb.)

Something is pulling me deeper into the fucking sea.
I cannot breathe and I cannot see.

(The next movement revolves all of the 3 lines.)

I cannot see, I cannot breathe. (My eyes are sore, My lips are numb.)

Kisses From Raindrops

2006-06-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

i never in my mind thinking about writing it

Verse 1
The rain fell on that day
Onto the heads of these passers by
Of this boy thats so in love with you

Every kiss from the raindrops
Occupies my lips
Atleast my mind is on this
Instead if trying to hold onto you

Verse 2
I organise this wind, so it blows
these words in through your window
And makes you laugh like the little girl you are

I will give you daylight
Even though the suns gone down
Thats right ull always feel
Warm and safe here with me

Chorus
I know people have used you
And thrown ur body aside
But i want you to know this
I love you more than life

Thats why i've put myself
Out on the line so many times
I want to soothe your skin
And mould your heart with mine

Verse 3
This time this song is about you
Right there it shows that you mean
everything to me, my heart bleeds for you

Your too good to be true
Like seeing your first rainbow
My face lights up everytime you
stumble into my presence

~'the 7 months'~

2006-06-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

today i just come back home hmm so tired after 4 nights of not pure sleep haha staying up late doin stupid thing haha.... Play soccer like a pro hahha but not arr only a normal soccer player. Joga 3 futsal has ended but not the skill and not the beautiful skills of each and any people.
Now its boring week end hmm but after that i hav to study N level its so coming.

Today its our seven month anni hmm and we didn't got to meet each other and go out and spend time. we just chat on msn hmm she can't go out. we love each other more den ever, every anni we get more and more loving its hard to tell how much but we both feel it hmm ....

(todays song)
PeterPan - tertinggal waktu, Bintang di syurga

Kau terbangun dari tidur panjang yang lelahkanmu
Sesali wajahmu merenta kisahmu terlupa
Kau sadari semua yang berjalan tlah tinggalkanmu
Dan tak dapat merangkai semua dekat di khayalmu
Kau harapkan keajaiban datang
Hadir dipundakmu
Kau harapkan keajaiban melengkapi khayalmu
Kau biarkan mimpi tetap mimpi
Yang melengkapi khayalmu
Kau terhenyak dan terbangunkan
Dan harapkan keajaiban datang hadir dipundakmu
Kini waktu meninggalkanmu

Sheila on 7 - Berhenti mengharap

werds: Those words you said untill i broke my glass of water

I'm out to slack

2006-06-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

hmm i out all the way till friday out to slack weee and slack2 oso go skul hahha do my project hahha. N level coming MUST STUDY LIAO.

well today my parents and i when out to buy my cloths, i'm out of cloths hehhe i'm goner be nude this month if i don't go shoppin hahha NUDE (merepek kan2)

this week i've been really brave haha like watching ghost video all haha dulu tkde semangat now mcm tiap hari nk tgk aper nak jadi eh. Yang matair plak takot tgk ahha well let me show you some of my FAVOURITES video Kucing cute pon ade Cik pon pon ader
Protest pon ader Panchong pon ader

BEWARE IF YOUR SCARED
Ghost in camp, Very BRAVE

Protest

Kucing CUTE SIAL

Malay Panchong

sume ader, haha sile tgk lah yerrr

Back to the blog

2006-06-03T14:07:00.000+08:00

can it be real or fake? its all up to you guys to believe.

I've been so buzy and lazy this 2 weeks, MY DNT project haven finish hmm i have to finish it hmm monday i'm goin skul

G S Hooligans Final Fight Sad one - ONE BLOOD

2006-05-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

Stand together as ONE BLOOD and true friendship

WE fail sometimes+

2006-05-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

Number one gun - you fail sometimes/
Dear whoever - we cry mercy/////////
these songs my favourites///////////
////////////////////////////////////

Friday, i did'nt go skul cause theres parents meetin and teacher didn't call me so don't need to go skul weee haha....At 9am i went to meet her at skul i took taxi hmm mcm org kaya baru seh everyday i meet her mesti nk naik taxi hahha frem toa payoh to the block where we normally meet. In taxi i sit listen to music haha lagu china haiyoo hmm then until kaki bukit the apek alamak he bring me to a long cut to tampines babi kau fikir aku banyak duit eh hehe.. den dah sampai the place its hmm $12 den apek say nvm boy $10 only then aper lagik kasik den kuar lah haha ...

Sit at the block wait for her to buy tix for us and idzuan tgk movie X-MEN the last stand (btul eh) haha i pay for her hehe wee before she blanje me, i blanje her first haha .. den eat at tender besh and guess what happen hehe skip that part we wanna ferget the suay mornin hehe ... k2 den after that gi solat jumaat after that meet her again at the bawa block and off to meet idzuan and his gf i ferget her name hehe nvm hehe... then beli nachos the cheese nice hehe.

after that we all balik naik 969 hmm stop here and let the picture speak for itself

Having a great time

I love her

Bluekz

Our legs are walking on the same path

I'm a DUMB GUY who walks away from LIFE =)

2006-05-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

(teenage dirtbag)

Her name is Noel
I have a dream about her
She rings my bell
I got gym class in half an hour
Oh how she rocks
In Keds and tube socks
But she doesn't know who I am
And she doesn't give a damn about me

Cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Yeah I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Listen to Iron Maiden baby with me

Her boyfriend's a dick
And he brings a gun to school
And he'd sI'mply kick
My ass if he knew the truth
He lives on my block
And he drives an Iroc
But he doesn't know who I am
And he doesn't give a damn about me

Cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Yeah I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Listen to Iron Maiden baby with me

Yeeah dirtbag, no she doesn't know what she's missin
Yeeah dirtbag, no she doesn't know what she's missin

Man I feel like mold
It's prom night and I am lonely
Low and behold
She's walking over to me
This must be fake
My lip starts to shake
How does she know who I am
And why does she give a damn about

I've got two tickets to Iron Maiden baby
Come with me Friday, don't say maybe
I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby like you

Yeeah dirtbag, no she doesn't know what she's missin
Yeeah dirtbag, no she doesn't know what she's missin

Call my name before sleep =)

2006-05-21T20:34:00.000+08:00

well well well if it isn't half-fish back to blogging after hmm 4 days not log in.

last night went to sleep at 12mn, WENT but sleep at 4 am, i can't sleep!. I'm thinking about her, feel like she's crying or what hmm. I hug my pillow and roll left and roll right but i can't stop thinking about her.

wake up in the morning on my comp at 8 am and wait fer her to online and BOOM she appear online hehe. Tell her about the night den ask her if that's anything wrong and she say nothing hmm maybe i miss her too much that's why i can't sleep hmm i miss you MISS CHUBBY...
Chat with her untill hmm 11.15 am then went out to take some thing hmm go home and i saw my sister using it, i know its gonna happen wtf. she juz sign out and sign in to her acc wtf. i promise her i'll be backhmm dumb ***** ARRRR.... msg he ad tell her i'm sorry hmm at 12nn went to han house then go bukit batok for Joga Bonito hmm play soccer hmm banyak org, ponpuan pon main lau matair aku main kan bagozz haha mampos dier tendang bola melayang entah aner hehe matair saye kuat tau hahha... k2 nnti mara plak dier..
hmm after that went home hehhe boring han ajak gi umah abg yan but mcm mlz arr jauh plak tu kat kaki bukit(bedok)hmmm

hmm i'll be updating tomorrow if i'm not buzy (playin game)hahha...

The night i hold your hand and kiss it...=|

solitary - 20 dischanger

2006-05-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

late and reoccuring nightmares
do nothing to help me overcome this insecurities
have i imagine this would be happening
my world came crumbling down

cause a few years ago i give u my all
not worrying if i made a huge mistake and
my instinct let me down
a crumpled state of mind that resurrects me
and so a solitary life waits ahead

im not used to this and im crying out loud
the remnants of the past keep creeping up on me
the lullaby u sing sound haunting everytime
the mirror sings back at me

i know its hard for me to say
it happened long ago
my memories etched and i forgive but not forget
im so torn at all the seams im trying hard to mend it back
do you ever care that i need you, you were never there
so much for all the promises
a solitary life waits ahead, waits ahead

im not used to this and im crying out loud
the remnants of the past keep creeping up on me
the lullaby u sing sound haunting everytime
the mirror sings back at me

posts no more lyrics!!!

2006-05-12T01:52:00.000+08:00

helo2, Fish here hehe well i heard complains about me not doin my post about myself hehhe... was so lazy hehe but must do pple complain already hehe... k2 well today hmm whats today's date okie nvm i don know it will appear somwhere hehe..

today morning wake up at 6am feelin fresh to start the day well, end up not really well enuf. when to skul had english paper 2 exam its so hard but i did my very best to ans all... the paper was a 1hr 10mins paper start at 7:56 end at 9:06 and i took 1hr to finish it well fer other paper juz 45mins but not this english paper.

after the paper frana msg me and said her batt is low hmm and i can't call her hmm i reply her back and when to mac eat and slack wif class mates toking crab joke arnd well that's how 4N5 do everyday haha.Walk to potong pasir mrt and when to toa payoh with edwin, meetin his gerlfren at toa payoh hmm but i didn't hmm i wish i could ...
den while we were in the mrt as usual we will disturb gerls alamak cannot be blame guys what hehe.. (i tk kacau tau awak i cume kutok dorg ajer kacau tk hehe) den we alight at dhoby Ghaut hehe den ader more gerls coming in haha but too bad we are goin off so left Sandeep, Dominic, linges, Loga haha ... took a train back to payoh den alamk ader mat2 kental mau carik psl plak
masok mrt aleh ckp" eh! nie dua bdk chine step besar arr .." haha me cine ya rite ... but then one of the mat reply to his fren yg ckp tu" kau diam lah ckp baik2 arr one of them bdk melayu lah sial diam lah" and the fellow keep quiet while i stare at him. how dumb can they be....

reach toa payoh meet karya and Ronald slack again hmm and karya when off left us three hm slack at han's block another frenz hmm best bud lah... slack2 till 1 den all when home ... hmm alot of slacking right... that's all i guess its long haha.. see ya soon pipit dear hahha jgn ketawe eh name manje dier tau haha....i love you

Story of the year

2006-04-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

[Lyrics to early version are a bit different:]

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes

Do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
And do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do, as I do? (Until the day I die)

Meriwether

2006-04-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

If you could go away. If you could fall asleep without me. If you could dream of love, and not dream of me. Then I will try to explain myself to you. That I cant fall asleep or dream without you. So I will conversate with myself and you wont be around to see me leave.

We put to sleep this lion. You closed your eyes and died again.

If you could fly away. If you could spread your wings without me. If god has plans for you, then would I include?

We put to sleep this lion. You closed your eyes and died again. Youve got this empty feeling that rocks the neck to bone.

We put to sleep this lion, without me. If you could dream of love, and not dream of me. If you could go away. If you could fall asleep without me. If you could dream of love, and not dream of me.

Jamison - goodbyes =<

2006-04-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

Sidewalks and streetlights,
you’re clutching the suitcase
I’m fighting with broken eyes,
we’ll take the long way home

Your kisses and goodbyes
are leaving my lips numb
I’m jealous of headlights
cause they’re all that clings to you
I’ll pray that our shoes melt in the pavement
We step back slowly
and I’ll take the long way home

Just one more time,
they'll be playing our song

Sidewalks and streetlights,
you’re clutching the suitcase
I’m fighting with broken eyes,
we’ll take the long way home

Just one more time,
they'll be playing our song

Meriwether

2006-04-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

B. Quiet
Be quiet, the voices said from the bedroom, where I was dead, and I loved you, you never had to say. Like the movies well never make and the soundtracks well never play and I loved you, you never had to say.

So be quiet.

When you cry, do you close your eyes? Cause my heart is breaking, and you are still faking a feeling that you will never know.

Be quiet, dont make a sound with the footsteps that touch the ground which were crushing the leaves of my remorse. Like a sad song, this lullaby whispers, sleeping, and sweet goodnight, and I loved you, you never had to say.

What say you to the revolution? What it is to kiss and tell, everybody is revolutionizing the world, over my head. Everybodys imitating, for the ratings, for the sake of the human race and I cant keep up.

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Emery

2006-04-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

Falling away from you
Always seems so tragic in my mind.
I hear that you're doing well now.
Things I wish I could have heard from you.
And it's been so long since the first time we tried,
Oh but anyway.
And all my friends say hello.

The phone rings, as soft sheets and daylight surround me.
She's gone, they tell me.
Are you listening?
For the life of me I can't see through this haze of sleepless dreaming.
Light breaks, the morning shades wake but rise no more.
I could have called her the night before empty broken promises lost.
I never said goodbye.
I never had the time.
I never said goodbye.

For the life of me I can't see through this haze of sleepless dreaming.
Dreaming. Dreaming. Dreaming.
Light breaks, the morning shades wake but rise no more.
I should have called her the night before you were broken.
Now everything's lost.
Everything seems lost.
All I see in my dreams.

Falling away from you.
Oh.

jimmy eat world

2006-04-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

If you're listening, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
Sing it back, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
String from your tether unwinds
(String from your tether unwinds) whoa oh, whoa oh
Up and outward to bind
(Up and outward to bind) whoa oh, whoa oh

I was spinning free, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
With a little sweet and simple numbing me.

Are you listening? whoa oh oh oh oh oh
Sing it back, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
So tell me what do I need
(tell me what do I need) whoa oh, whoa oh
When words lose their meaning
(When words lose their meaning) whoa oh, whoa oh

I was spinning free, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
With a little sweet and simple numbing me.
Yeah, stumble till you crawl, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
Sinking into sweet uncertainty

(Are you listening? Are you listening?)

If you're listening, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
If you're listening, are you listening?
Sing it back, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
If you're listening, are you listening?
I'm still running away
(I'm still running away) whoa oh, whoa oh
Won't play your hide and seek game
(your hide and seek game) whoa oh, whoa oh

I was spinning free, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
With a little sweet and simple numbing me.
What a dizzy dance, whoa oh oh oh oh oh
This sweetness will not be concerned with me.
No the sweetness will not be concerned with me.
No the sweetness will not be concerned with me.

The three RASCALS

2006-04-09T06:49:00.000+08:00

Here i'm thinking of you
all the things we used to do
before the day our 6 months for being together

And its so hard to make you understand that your're the only one who is in my heart now. I wish you could feel and see it.

Dream about the missing days
when we can't contact again
I feel like i wanna burst into bloody flame

(lyrics again> i think my lyrics is suxz haha merepek arr. but pple comment arr k)

The Three Rascals

2006-04-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

The light shine when you smile at me
But now your gone the light grew away from me
I miss the times we had.

The sound of you walking away make me feel sad

Feel so hurt and heartbroken
You didn’t say goodbye even
And all ends now.
When I think about you
it tears my heart away
My life won't be the same again

so just walk away, You like me feel this way.
so just walk away, You like me bleed so freely like rain

(if its suxz comment if not still comment)

(frana for you its juz a lyric k)

fell from Grace

2006-04-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

Prince charming leave her without a word
Left her castle and treat her like a dirt
He rode away on his horse
And now she live with remorse

She swore she's committed to him
It's time for her to redeem
Let me be your brand new knight
I promise you everything's alright

She can't face the fact that
He will never coming back
Never coming back
Tonight

Up on the tower
God listens to her prayer
Hoping he will return
'Cause her eyes are cold and getting swollen
From crying endless tears
Waiting for countless years
Hoping he will return
'Cause her eyes are cold and getting swollen

As times goes by, no tears to cry
I'm here for you, do the things you do
Everything and anything
You and me for eternity

I build a castle just for you
Go to wars and fight for you
Give you golds and jewellery
All I want is you as memories

She can't face the fact that
He will never coming back
Never coming back
Tonight

Up on the tower
God listens to her prayer
Hoping he will return
'Cause her eyes are cold and getting swollen
From crying endless tears
Waiting for countless years
Hoping he will return
'Cause her eyes are cold and getting swollen

From first to last

2006-04-01T09:47:00.000+08:00

"Ride The Wings Of Pestilence"

Hiding behind the shadows

I'll be waiting in the dark

to drive this blade straight through your heart

I'll drag your body to the caras blood races down my arm

I think everyone will wonder where you are, tonight

I'll hide you in my wallsyour body will never be found

I'll wear your skin as a suit

Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to

Dear diary my teen angst bullshit has a body count

I believe it's 6 going on 7 now.

I've been dreaming about youin a pool of your own blood

with your eyes gouged out

by the work of my thumbs

the scent of your insides

from under the floorboards

the perfect perfumefor settling a score.

I'll hide you in my walls

your body will never be found

I'll wear your skin as a suit

Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to

Ride the wings of....

Ride the wings of pestilence!